First Love <3

by Shealin Jaquez
(Phoenix, Arizona, USA)

We were only 16 when we found out I was having a baby.

We met in middle school. His name is Luis and he was my twin brother's best friend.

We lost contact after my twin brother was sent to jail for 2 years. A year later we met again at a party and I recognized him and from that day on we started dating.

He was my first and taught me everything. We never used protection because we relied on the pull out method which doesn't work at all!

I didn't know I was pregnant util two months later.

I was so scared and I ended up getting kicked out of my house and I ran to Luis' mother and cried and told her everything, like how I was scared to tell Luis that I was pregnant.

She moved me into her house and I lived with them.

When Luis found out I was prego he was nothing but excited; he couldn't wait.

After a couple of weeks of living together we ended up fighting all the time and he started going out more. That's when I made the decision to move out and live with my best friend while he was at work.

When Luis got home and found all my stuff gone he came to my best friend's house and stared telling me that he didn't want the baby he was willing to sign his rights over and if not he was gonna disappear to Cali (California) and when I had the baby don't give it his name or nothing.

This went on for days.

He would text my phone saying dumb things making me cry at school and all the time telling me he didn't care. That was until he realized that I was talking to others guys.

Someone had told him that another guy was gonna take care of me and the baby which was totally a lie. . he freaked out and he said he was gonna kick my ass if he found out his child was calling another guy Daddy.

I couldn't live like that anymore and my best friend's mother had offered a solution to get an abortion and she'll pay for it.

At this point me and Luis weren't talking at all for weeks and I wanted the abortion so bad just to end everything.

When I was sitting there in the clinic just waiting for my name to be called I started getting phone calls from Luis. When I ignored like 5 of them he started texting me, asking if I was okay and if i needed him to come get me. . .I could tell he wanted to talk to me but I just put my phone on silent and stuffed it in my purse, got up and walked toward the back.

After everything was done you had to go and sit in this room for like 30 minutes and drink club soda and eat crackers. That's when I finally answered his phone call.

"Hello". . "Shealin are you okay? Did you need me ?? " It was Luis talkin super fast

"No" I responded

"Where you at? Shealin. . ."

"Why do you wanna know" I threw back at him.

"Just tell me you still have my baby please" he pleaded. There was nothing but silence.

That's when he stated yellin and callin me a whore and a slut and saying he was gonna get all his girl friends and girl cousins to jump me when I got back.

He was so mad it scared me cause I had never seen him like this before.

Weeks went by and we didn't talk to each other; not even look at each other. Until one day he came to me saying he still loved me and always have but he'll never forgive me.

Till this very day.

We are both 18 years old now and he is a big soccer star at school and got a scholarship to ASU (Arizona State University) next year.

I graduated earlier and now attend beauty school . . we are still together and plan on one day having a family of our own

<3 I love you Luis Arturo Martinez!